Wednesday, January 25, 2012

The Crackpots and These Women

I don't know if it's just the revolution in the air or the fact that we're all in our twenties and facing the big bad real world, but in recent weeks many of my female friends and I have remarked on how lucky we are to have each other as well as the many other wonderful and inspiring women in our life. Cheesy cheesy cheesy, I know. Nonetheless, I read Hayley's brilliant post the other morning morning, last week I read Ariana's very kind post and a whole host of other situations have once again led me to the conclusion that the women in my life are amazing. They, more than anyone else, make me want to be better, do more, get myself out there and show the world what I've got. They make me believe I've got something in the first place. Never underestimate the power of that in someone's life.

I've many goals for this year, not so much resolutions as things I have it set in my mind that I want to achieve. Obviously I have to be realistic - right now I'm exhausted. I haven't really had a proper break since I came home at the very beginning of August, a combination of there not really being time and not wanting to give someone else more to deal with just because I was feeling run down myself or whatever. I'm better busy, but I rarely accept how much it tires me out.

Jobs-wise, I've begun to apply for many jobs and internships in all sorts of fields, but I'm also looking at how I can support myself freelancing in various ways in the mean time, as well as keeping a couple of part time jobs. Hard work but not excruciating and hard work suits me well. Still, it would be nice to have a slightly more permanent job... I think... but then people keep suggesting I take a year out. Tempting, very tempting. A few weeks of careful thinking has meant that the solution seems to be (for me) taking my time until September (unless a job suddenly appears) and at that point hitting everything hard. I will need to have moved out by then as we will be in a new house and students will need my room -- that's ok, I have plans for that. It's all do-able, really. That's the great revelation of 2012 so far: I am capable, as long as I don't put too much pressure on myself. I'm fantastic at working under pressure but then I inevitably burn out a little bit afterwards and that's what I have to avoid. I have to take extra care to be healthy and well and rested and able to jump into every job and do my absolute best. Luckily, I have wonderful friends to inspire me along the way and just generally be brilliant.

Anyway, I have to get to a seminar now. Write again soon. x

Title is from one of my favourite episodes of The West Wing. What should I track below? Do let me know.

Listening to: Merlin's Time by Al Stewart
Book I just finished: Autumn Term by Antonia Forest
Chicago 21st: £0.00 [purely because I just funded my VidCon trip!]

11 comments:

  1. Being an English major, have you considered moving abroad as an English teacher? There are many opportunities out there (particularly in Japan, Spain, and Latin America), and the early 20s, possibly the best time to frolic around and discover new cultures! :) Have fun at your seminar!

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    1. I have seriously considered it, especially in Spain and Latin America! I think I'm going to take stock again in a year or so and will go for it if the circumstances fall into place!

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  2. I think Claudia has a point there. My boyfriend's brother is currently in Japan teaching English, I taught English in Spain... I'm sure there are opportunities elsewhere in Europe too.

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    1. Yes, there's opportunities all over the world! It's quite crazy really...

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  3. I'm also coming to the end of my university life and I know where I want to go but not entirely sure how to get there! I envy you a lot with regards to your female friends. That's something i've never really had and it's always made me pretty sad. However the end of undergraduate life means it's the start of a completely new chapter so there's always time! xx

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  4. It seems like what you've figured out for your future makes a lot of sense, and you're great, so don't worry too much!
    Also, Autumn Term! I'm totally obsessed with the Marlow books. Were you reading it for your delightful-sounding children's literature class? What did you think?

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    1. I liked it a lot, great fun! It really felt like being back in secondary school for a bit, all of the school politics etc!

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  5. I want to go to Chicago too!
    Also, I know you're not a woman "in my life" but you (along with other youtubers and authors and artists) inspire me to be a better woman too. I'm lazy, unlike you, and I like not being busy. I like being able to watch tons of TV and read and do all the stuff I love, but that needs to stop. I need to be a go-getter, because I've got ambitions. You're ambitious and hard-working, but still have time for those recreational enriching activities. Where am I going with this? You're amazing. And I'm glad that you know that.

    -Madhu

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  6. definitely track books! and other things too that I can't think of right now. you're wonderful!

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  7. I'm facing a similar dilema too as I am in my final semester of college and have no clue as to what I want to do afterwards. Being rather unenthusiastic about pursuing a career in Law (what I'm studying) at this time, I've resisted the pressure to just continue on the escalator system. Instead I've finally come to terms with the idea of taking a year out. I'm looking at it as a chance to stop and look at what I enjoy and am good at and what I can and want to do without the immediate influence of a set social structure telling me what is the obvious path. Don't think you have to rush into getting a "proper" job straight out of college, people forget how important that old cliché of "finding yourself" is.

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