I don't know if it's just the revolution in the air or the fact that we're all in our twenties and facing the big bad real world, but in recent weeks many of my female friends and I have remarked on how lucky we are to have each other as well as the many other wonderful and inspiring women in our life. Cheesy cheesy cheesy, I know. Nonetheless, I read Hayley's brilliant post the other morning morning, last week I read Ariana's very kind post and a whole host of other situations have once again led me to the conclusion that the women in my life are amazing. They, more than anyone else, make me want to be better, do more, get myself out there and show the world what I've got. They make me believe I've got something in the first place. Never underestimate the power of that in someone's life.
I've many goals for this year, not so much resolutions as things I have it set in my mind that I want to achieve. Obviously I have to be realistic - right now I'm exhausted. I haven't really had a proper break since I came home at the very beginning of August, a combination of there not really being time and not wanting to give someone else more to deal with just because I was feeling run down myself or whatever. I'm better busy, but I rarely accept how much it tires me out.
Jobs-wise, I've begun to apply for many jobs and internships in all sorts of fields, but I'm also looking at how I can support myself freelancing in various ways in the mean time, as well as keeping a couple of part time jobs. Hard work but not excruciating and hard work suits me well. Still, it would be nice to have a slightly more permanent job... I think... but then people keep suggesting I take a year out. Tempting, very tempting. A few weeks of careful thinking has meant that the solution seems to be (for me) taking my time until September (unless a job suddenly appears) and at that point hitting everything hard. I will need to have moved out by then as we will be in a new house and students will need my room -- that's ok, I have plans for that. It's all do-able, really. That's the great revelation of 2012 so far: I am capable, as long as I don't put too much pressure on myself. I'm fantastic at working under pressure but then I inevitably burn out a little bit afterwards and that's what I have to avoid. I have to take extra care to be healthy and well and rested and able to jump into every job and do my absolute best. Luckily, I have wonderful friends to inspire me along the way and just generally be brilliant.
Anyway, I have to get to a seminar now. Write again soon. x
Title is from one of my favourite episodes of The West Wing. What should I track below? Do let me know.
Listening to: Merlin's Time by Al Stewart
Book I just finished: Autumn Term by Antonia Forest
Chicago 21st: £0.00 [purely because I just funded my VidCon trip!]